Just rambling..

ahhhh i love fridays!! today has been really nice, and i am even more excited for later today. me and some of the girls from my hall ((mindy, liz, allison, hillary, katrina, and reena)) are all going to kristen's ((another girl from my hall)) house. her mom is cooking us dinner and we are just hanging out. i am very, very excited! :] then later tonight is the "lumberjack games". the boys from davidson put on a show for us. i am not sure exactly what this will involve, but i think lumberjack maybe explains it all. i dont know though..humm..anywho, then tomorrow me and my friend kristen ((and maybe mindy)) are going to this shopping center in this town called bridgeport. i am excited! [if you cant tell yet, i am just darn excited for this weekend]. okay..then so saturday night im not quite sure what im doing, but it will be fun im sure. okay, so sunday is what i am really pumped for. i found this {hopefully} awesome//amazing church online. it reminds me a lot of riverchase. im not getting my hopes up too high, but i am really excited. i havent had much luck finding a church that i love yet. im sure one will come though...i mean you just cant beat riverchase..:]
ohhhh speaking of riverchase...i am pretty excited because i decided today i am coming home next weekend. yayy. i am super pumped. i love being here, but i miss my family and house so so much. so i am jazzed about that.
andddd another awesome thing is that i have a permanent job now. the whole babysitting thing kinda fell through ((weird story)). but anywho, i am catering for the police acadamy down the street from campus on monday and tuesday's. it was a total God thing. me and mindy had just prayed about me finding a consistent job and then when i got on my webmail to check it, there was an email about this job, so i emailed her back and i kid you not, like 5 minutes later she emailed me back telling me the job was mine. :] so i start monday. kinda nervous..but super super excited at the same time! God is really cool how he works things out!
one more thing...i have a prayer request. i am praying about and possible considering going to italy on a mission trip with a group from corban over spring break. i dont know quite yet if thats for sure something God wants me to. if it is, please pray that he would open doors.
well now that i have bored you all with an "update" on my life...i hope you all have a wonderful weekend and halloween! :]

When bad days turn good..

dont you just love that? i do.

...you wake up and everything just seems to go downhill from there...then you talk to Jesus..and the day suddenly turns around completly! pretty darn awesome//amazing. :]

Captivating..

so i am reading this amazing//awesome//wonderful book that my friend emily is letting me read. its so good. i just have to share some of it with you all! if anyone hasn't read it ((mom, carol, tanya)) i recommend that you do! it's awesome ((as i have mentioned)). okay, so anywho, the name of the book is captivating and it's by john and stasi eldredge. :] okay, so as i was reading last night i came across something :: This is actually a quote john mentions from his book wild at heart so, some of you might recognize it. but this is how it goes :: "after years of hearing the heart-cry of women, i am convinced beyond a doubt of this: God wants to be loved. He wants to be a priority to someone. how could we have missed this? from cover to cover, beginning to end, the cry of God's heart is, "why won't you choose me?" it is amazing to me how humble, how vulnerable God is on this point. "you will find me," says that Lord, "when you seek me with all your heart". in other words, look for me, pursue me - i want you to pursue me. God waits to be wanted. "

what? God wants to be wanted? something so simple that i always knew ((God always does this)). this is what i know now :: God is beautiful, and since i am created in the image of God i am also beautiful. :] God longs to be loved, just like me. i guess i just never thought of God as longing to be loved. God feels the same things i do? what? thats odd. but amazingly awesome at the same time. one major point that stasi kept making was that Woman ((eve)) was created in the image of God, just like adam was. God just contines to blow my mind each and every day. phew...

Another good thing about Tuesdays

in our hall we have this thing called "testimony tuesdays". every tuesday at 10, 2 girls share what God has done in their life. i have enjoyed these times very much and God has taught me something each time just through what he has done in their lives. last night my good friends monica and allison shared their testimony. both were amazing stories. both were similar to my story in the part of growing up in a chrisitan home. but anywho, that isnt what i want to talk about. something moncia said really stuck out to me. she was talking about going to Canada to go to a bible school, and how she missed it alot. it made me think about how much i miss Nepal and how much i long to go back there every day. i miss that "spiritual high" i had while i was there and i miss being in God's word everyday, and constantly being aware of how much people are searching and in need of his love. but something monica said made me stop and think. she said "i realized that it wasn't the bible school or being in Canada that changed me, it was God." wow!!!! and that is so true! it wasnt Nepal in of itself that changed me..it was God!! yeah, God knew that being in Nepal would teach me so much, but i dont have to be there to experience people who are searching for him. those people are right here...even at this campus. and i for sure don't need to be on a mission trip to be in God's word everyday! i do miss Nepal so, so much, and i do think about everyday, but God wants me to be here right now...and i need to make the best of it! and live each and everyday for God and praise him for who he is and what he has done in my life!!!

another thing...sometimes testimony tuesday's get me kinda down because i dont have that huge turning point in my life like some people. there testimony is so much cooler. not true. God has showed me so many times, but i tend to forget, that my testimony is his testimony, and it is special to him, and it will be special to other people as well. :]

ps. me and mindy share next tuesday. :]

God is so good!

if you went to "sunday school" at a baptist church in the south ((or maybe anywhere)) you probably know the song God is so good..well it goes like this:: God is so good, God is so good, He's so good to me...God answers prayers, God answers prayers..he's so good to me! there is a little but more i think, but that is the meat of it. anywho, we actually sang this song in chapel a few weeks back...and although the tune is a little childish ((okay, alot childish)), i really like the words. and lately, i have found these words to be so true!! as many of you know, i have been impatiently and franticly looking for a job. well about last week sometime i basically just gave up. but 2 days ago ((wednesday)), i was looking on the career website thing that corban set up and i came across this lady who was looking for a babysitter. i thought to myself, ill email her then call her tomorrow, but she probably already has someone. so i emailed her, and i kid you not, about an hour later, she called me. we talked for a little bit, and i guess she thinks im pretty cool because i start today. :] i am so happy, and God really is so good! it is exactly what i needed and wanted. it is at nights, which is wonderful. and its 2 little girls. even more wonderful. and she pays really well. :] so thanks to all who have been praying that i would get a job!

this weekend = crazy!!
today:: class, work ((yayy)), barn party
tomorrow :: going to portland to see alyssa from my nepal team
sunday:: going to church with alyssa...then studying for the crazzy american thought exam on mondy..ahh.

im excited. :]

oh and to all those who gave me a hard time about coming home again last weekend, i hope you miss me this sunday.

I hate thinking of Titles

wow. its almost been a week. crazy weird. last week went by so fast i didnt even realize that i didnt post...
anywho, today chapel was awesome. the pastor//speaker dude talked about humbling ourselves. not really to each other, but to God and his will. he talked about how many people think they are following in God's will but hey arent, and then he talked about how many people there are that clearly know they are not walking along God's path. some examples of how people usually respond to God that he mentioned were :: 1] God says follow me and the person hears him but just stands there, doing nothing. 2] God says follow me and the person starts to follow him but then once he//she realizes that its going to be tougher then they thought, they stop following. 3] God says follow me and the person runs ((not walks))the complete opposite direction that God is going. 4] God says follow me and the person followes him, but then jumps in front of him, wanting to take the lead and take control. and... 5] God says follow me and they do the best they can to follow God and his will step by step.
at the end of "the talk" we were to pray//reflect on what type of "path" we are walking with God. honestly, i coudnt figure it out. i mean, i know that God wants me here at corban now..so thats good. but, am i surrendering my life to Christ on a daily basis? nope. im not. this is not a good thing. i praise God for his grace and patience with me. what an amazing God i worship and love.

Tuesdays

well. tuesdays are not my favorite days thats for sure!! i have 5 classes and i usually have tons of homework due in each one -- so sometimes monday nights can be worse then tuesdays. but anywho,one thing that i love about God is that he knows that i hate tuesdays. today, i have come to the conclusion that he doesnt want me to hate tuesdays. today, he showed me some things that i can be thankful for on tuesdays...let see :: i have 2 classes with mindy, i have a 30 minute break between each class ((plenty of time to do hw i didnt do, blog, or get a dr pepper)), the next day is wednesday - this meaning the homework tonight will not be bad at all... wednesdays are really good :]
so these are a few reasons God showed me just today why i should adore tuesdays!! haha...okay, so maybe not adore, but atleast not hate them. hope all your tuesdays are going swell!!