I hate thinking of Titles

wow. its almost been a week. crazy weird. last week went by so fast i didnt even realize that i didnt post...
anywho, today chapel was awesome. the pastor//speaker dude talked about humbling ourselves. not really to each other, but to God and his will. he talked about how many people think they are following in God's will but hey arent, and then he talked about how many people there are that clearly know they are not walking along God's path. some examples of how people usually respond to God that he mentioned were :: 1] God says follow me and the person hears him but just stands there, doing nothing. 2] God says follow me and the person starts to follow him but then once he//she realizes that its going to be tougher then they thought, they stop following. 3] God says follow me and the person runs ((not walks))the complete opposite direction that God is going. 4] God says follow me and the person followes him, but then jumps in front of him, wanting to take the lead and take control. and... 5] God says follow me and they do the best they can to follow God and his will step by step.
at the end of "the talk" we were to pray//reflect on what type of "path" we are walking with God. honestly, i coudnt figure it out. i mean, i know that God wants me here at corban now..so thats good. but, am i surrendering my life to Christ on a daily basis? nope. im not. this is not a good thing. i praise God for his grace and patience with me. what an amazing God i worship and love.