It Not About Me..Really.

it happend again. God slapped me in the face. this was a gentle slap though...much more gentle then it should have been...
so monday morning me and God were having a little chat. you know when you have that feeling where "something" is wrong or there is that feeling and your just like "grrrrr...what the heck is wrong with me" well i have kinda had been feeling that the last few weeks and i didnt really know what was wrong. well i realized that it was mainly because me and God had not had a one on one in a very long time. all along, i knew that we needed to have a long chat but i kept worrying about other things first...like school and social stuff. so finally when me and God finally had that much needed chat, he showed me something SO awesome! first off, i have realized that those one on one talks with God are so important, they have to come before everything!!!!! my quiet time with the Lord is extremly important, and i need to start taking it seriously. okay...so i havent even gotten into what he really taught me..haha...

so, i was reading in Deuteronomy 33..and this is a verse i came across: "Who is like your children, O God, a people saved by the Lord? You are my shield and helper and my glorious sword. Cause my enemy to cower, Lord! Trample down his high places." so the first time i read through it, i was like, yeah yeah, i know...God is my sheild! awesome! but then i got this most amazing picture in my mind about God protecting me from satan and my enemys. i pictured him standing in front of me with his arms spread out fighting off my enemys and telling satan how close he can get to me, and stopping him when he gets too close..i was reminded of that verse that says God wont allowed us to be tempted with more that we can handle. just thinking about this amazes me. it makes me feel so safe and so loved. then as i was thinking about how God protects me, and fights off my enemys, i began to think..wow! nothing is ever about me. God is the one fighting off Satan, not me. so many times i find myself patting myself on the back..like God job fighting that tempation, Amanda...good job not gossiping...good job having a quiet time. why i think like this makes me sick! its not me!!! its Christ, taking control of my life like i desire, and fulfilling his purpose through me! how awesome! what an amazing God i serve! i am so thankful for his gentle slaps on the face. :)