Hummm

well not too much has happend since my last blog. except one MAJOR thing! i am now 18. its a pretty cool feeling. actually, to be quite honest i feel no different. its just really cool to be able to say that im 18. i sound old or something. its rad.
other then that... today is may the eighth, and if you dont know the class of 2006 graduates on june the eighth ((that is in one month exactly)). thats really crazy to think about. high school has gone by so fast, especially this year. i never thought that it would come and as it gets closer and closer i get more excited and anxious. graduating means many things: 1) im done with high school. 2) i go to nepal. 3) after that i go to corban. 4) no more mommy, daddy, lauren, natalie, joshua, carol, and colby whenever i need them. that last one freaks me out the most. i rely on my family so incredibly much for EVERYTHING! i can not imagine not having my mom upstairs to go talk to when i get home from work. i cant imagine not having the chance to hug my dad everyday. i cant imagine not having carol to be goofy with whenever i need to get away from my house. and i cant imagine not having my sisters there to talk with me about anything, anytime of the day. as i was thinking about all this i decided//realized that yeah, its sad and yeah, its gonna be tough. but i need to learn how to FULLY rely on God for absolutely everthing!! i have a hard time realizing that God is more helpful then my family. i hate saying that. but he is. and he will always be there. unlike people here on earth.
well maybe i will blog on this later. we have to go to dinner!