2007.

man. i am coming to find out that the year 2007 is going to bring many, many things. great things and hard things...new things and old thing...
so, coming back to corban didnt start off too great for me. the first night i was back i was informed by a girl in my hall that she would not be returning to corban for the 2nd semester. i was devestated (spelling? haha). the reason this hit me so hard was because she was my closest girlfriend that i had made at corban. when i was sad i went to her. when i had a great day, i wanted to tell her about it. and when i was bored, she was always the girl i would go to. we talked about so many things, and i felt like i knew her so well, and she knew me. we had even made plans to possibly be roomies next year. when i found out that she wasnt going to be coming back THIS semester, i didnt know what to do. all sunday night, and even most of yesterday i was just in shock i guess. i didnt know what i was going to do without her. i hated walking to class without her, and coming back to the dorm and not going in her room to say hi.. and i didnt know why all of this was happening. my parents so kindly reminded me that God has a perfect and beautiful plan, but for some reason, i didnt thinking taking monica away from me was a good one. well, i was wrong. i dont know exactly what God's plan is in all this, but i do know that God does have a plan... and its wonderful. not having monica around has already allowed me to get closer to some other girls in my hall. God has shown me how important it is not to have my whole life planned out. this year is not going to be the way i planned or thought that i wanted. the amazing thing is, God knows what i want, and i believe with all my heart that if i seek after him, that he will give me what i want. even if i think its not what i want. and that makes me happy. :]

i commit this next year to not worrying about the future. not planning out my life. just giving it to God, and letting him do with me what he wants. and i commit to starting over new everyday.