Blahh

the title really says it all this time. you know when you just feel blahhh? like your not doing good, but not doing terrible either. that's how i feel.
the good part:: i am beginning to notice God everywhere, and i am loving it. he has been showing me so much about who he really is just through the smallest things, and everyday i go to sleep wanting to wake up and more in love with him, and i do! i am making amazing, wonderful, and lasting friendships here, and i am enjoying every second of getting a solid, christian education.
the not terrible part:: i feel tired, overwhelmed, stressed, and sometimes sad. i have so much work to do, and i feel like it is a struggle to stay caught up in all of my classes. but yet, every time i just sit back and give it to God, i get it done, and i get it done well. so i dont understand why i get so stressed, but i do. i am overwhelmed with many things. God has blessed me with an amazing job that i love, but it does take up so much of my time, and at the end of the day i am so beat. relationship situations with friends go up and down. were good, were bad. and other times i end up feeling confused and left in the dark with some people. and im sad. leaving home on sunday was so hard, and i dont know why. if i didnt have mindy in the car with me, i probably would have cried the whole way home. my family means more to me then anyone, and so does my church.
i love being at corban, and i am so blessed to be here. the people are amazing, and so is what i am learning. its just like i said..i guess i have just been feeling kinda blahhh.
i dont like feeling like this. it almost (actually not almost, it does) makes me feel a little guilty because i can name so many amazing//awesome things that are going on in my life, but i still tend to focus more on the negative side of things, and pray to God about the negative things. i tell him why my day was bad, and ask him to make it better. i dont know why i do this. my selfish old self i suppose.
i am excited to see my sister and friends this weekend. that should be awesome. and i am excited to start a new day tomorrow. :]